Wednesday, September 22, 2010

A rainy day entry.

Man, rainy days can be touch and go. It's nice sometimes to be forced into the house and just be lazy, but I didn't get that luxury because I had doctor's appointments today, oh well.

So I've acquired a new vehicle :) it's a 1990 Buck LeSabre, with 209,000 miles and it is a god damn beast! It's going to be my winter get-around, nothing better than a big-ass car with great tires that floats over the snowbanks. Here's what I plan to do to it so far:

-Rhino liner on the lower edges of the car to prevent more corrosion
-Flat Black paint
-Nighshade tail lights
-Repaint the steel wheels black
-Eyebrows on the front headlights
-4 rally-style round foglights on the front
-DDM Apexcone 6000K HID kit
-Short ram intake (done already)
-2 1/4 exhaust to a y-pipe and dual pipes
-Give the interior a good cleaning

A lot of money, you might say, but to drive the Prelude during the winter:

-I'd have to wash it frequently to prevent more rust
-I'd have to get 4 new tires, low pros aren't cheap (around 550 installed)
-I'd drive like a fucking grandma because i'd be afraid of getting hit

Buick - Free, needs tabs and title transferred, and insurance ($70-80 for tabs and title, $45 a month insurance)
Honda- Needs tires ($550), $41 a month insurance

I'll take the Buick for the winter, thank you :)

Friday, September 17, 2010

HYPOCRITES!

Rant.

Through the years, i've held onto and let go of many people in my life. All will remain a part of me always, against my will. We all do this, we all learn from everyone we meet in our life, and we don't always learn something from them, sometimes we just learn about them.

I've gone down this path a few times with a few people. I have learned (about them) that their actions do not reflect what they claim to be. It took me a while in some cases but in the end, their true colors had shown through, whether they wanted them to or not.

And you know what? It sucks. It sucks to think that someone you once knew, got along with, would give the shirt off your back, have now become an acquaintance, if even that. I don't blame myself at all for this situation that applies to me and someone I know. The person in question was all about positivity, but a lot of what I absorbed from them was negativity. "Fuck this, fuck that, I hate this place, etc etc". I know people who claim to be positive, and they never act the way this character did. The individual seemed to pawn all of their unhappiness or problems on others, never taking responsibility FOR themselves.

It's funny how once this person got out of the place they hated so much, they forgot about what made it not such a bad place, the friendship(s) of a few good people, we get put on the back burner, and you wonder why i'm such a dick, well here's your answer. You've changed. You're self absorbed, nothing like what we used to know, and I am definitely not the only one who thinks so . You contradict yourself with your actions and I firmly believe you do what you do
just because you think it's cool or trendy, not because you truly want to. As far as i'm concerned, you no longer exist to me. Call me an asshole, tell me i'm wrong, I don't care, you lost my respect.

Enough about that bullshit, it's got me in a bad enough mood as is. I'm doing more thinking lately about where I want to go in life and what I want to do...


... and when I figure it out, i'll write about it :)

Lata.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Right here, right now, i'll stand my ground and never back down...

That title comes from a song I just heard today for the first time, called Awake and Alive by Skillet. It's weird, they definitely don't come off as a Christian band in that song and I love the song, it's been stuck in my head all day and is repeating itself in my headphone as I am typing this.

Ah, the simple joys of sound waves reverberating through your ear canals :)

It's shaping up to be a pretty swell week so far. This weekend, I helped Jessica's mom move from her old house in Rochester to her new place in Stewartville. It was actually fun, got to spend the day with people I enjoy, got to drive a big U-Haul truck (yet again reinforcing my idea that I really can drive just about anything), and at the end of all the hard work I was paid for it. Not the most important part to me by any means but it is so rewarding to know that people value your help when the need it most.

I love feeling that I have helped someone in any significant way. Problem solving is probably my strongest characteristic. I'm a shoulder to lean on, i'm ears to listen, and i'm a friend to help :)

I can't wait for Tomorrow, I decided I am treating Jessica and taking her to her favorite place, it is in Pepin, Wisconsin and it is called the Pickle Factory, i've never been there before but I am all for finding new places and getaway spots, excited :)

Life rocks, just sayin' :)

Until next time... :)

Sunday, August 8, 2010

New blogs coming your way soon.

I've kinda been tossing around the idea of starting a few new blogs. These would be blogs revolving around certain topics, and they would be about topics I eat, breathe and sleep.

Cars, and Diabetes.

The Automotive blog will be coming at your way very soon (meaning right after this entry is completed), and the Diabetes blog at a later date yet to be determined.

My head is bursting at the seams with knowledge, and I feel the need to let it out through my fingertips.

Keep checkin' in ;)

-Ryan

Sunday, August 1, 2010

A peice about relationsips, and whatever the hell else I want.

It's been a while, I shall say. Life has kept me pretty occupied so I haven't written in a while, my apologies to all the fans and readers.

One topic i've been dealing with lately is relationships. My own relationships, other peoples' relationships, blahblahblah. I've learned a lot on the topic lately, so here are some things I shall share with you.

Relationships take two to be successful, so remember to do your part. us guys are quite guilty at times of acting like we don't care, not doing the sweet little romantic things, i'm sure the dudes reading this have heard this at one time or another.

As a romantic relationship matures, people seem to fall into a routine of things. The little ga-ga things, that magic spark from the beginning months, has shaped itself into comfort, routine, and ultimately, takes away some of the spontaneity. This is where my first bit of advice begins.

You gotta remember to keep doing the little things in a relationship. You have to continue to be spontaneous, you have to keep writing those little love notes, surprising her with flowers, you have to keep showing her that you do love her, otherwise she may begin to think you don't care, which may very well not be the case, but as a note to the gentlemen, we all know that we are romantic but sometimes don't show it, so remember to keep showing it.

I, myself, was guilty of this exact thing, I learned from it and now my relationship with my girlfriend is stronger than ever. If you're reading this Jessica, i'm sorry, and i'm glad you gave me the chance to show you I do love and care for you very much, I love you honey :)

The second part of my relationship topic comes to trusting your instinct. My instincts have never failed me, not ONCE. When I feel something is wrong, something always has been wrong. Instinct exists with everyone, but a majority choose not to believe it, or push it to the side.

Your instinct can save you from some serious heartbreak, and it can many times work with you, not against you. If you feel from the get-go of a new relationship that things are not as they seem, or you don't feel comfortable, and you can not explain why you feel that way, listen to what your gut is telling you. Your body and mind are a lot more in-tune with things than you can even imagine, we are highly developed organisms with mind-blowing abilities, and this is one of them. So trust it once in a while.

The last part of my relationships topic is something I don't really understand, yet it happens all the time: Cheating.

I've only cheated once, yes I am guilty of it. It was about a year and a half ago, I found out an ex was cheating on me , so I drove to my other exes house and spent the night there. I felt like she had ruined the relationship already so I had no regard to her feelings anymore. Call me selfish, I call it getting even.

However, if you got problems that you think are occurring, be a man, step up and talk to her about it, because if you "love" her so much, you should be able to tell her anything, instead of going behind her back and messin' around.

PEACE.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Damn!

I get real tired of logging onto Facebook and reading all these posts and status updates regarding personal things, a.k.a. relationship issues/rants.

Quite honestly, if you're to the point where you are willing to share with complete strangers the fact that "he's a cheater and a player" or "she's a slut blah blah", your relationship needs some rethinking. BIGTIME.

I could give a shit less about your personal problems that you need Facebook's help to work out, that just shows a serious lack of motivation to make things better, and makes things quite obvious that you don't really care.

hm.

I'm still waiting to actually hear from a friend that I quit talking to just to see if she would really notice if I existed. I'm beginning to think I may never hear from her again.. I was a bit upset to find out that the only time within the last month and a half that i've heard from her, she only called because one of our mutual friends kept asking her how I was doing and suggested she call me, and she responded "Well I guess I could call him."

So much for best friends... or so i'm beginning to think...

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

you know, it's funny..

...how you can stop talking to a few people for a while just to see if they'll ask you how you are doing once in a while, and they never talk to you.

I chose to stop talking to a few people for a little while for reasons of my own, good reasons, and none of the people in question have acknowledged my existence. It's sad, sometimes they will even show up at the same place I am at, where they KNOW i'm at, and never come say hi to me.

Friends come and go, I suppose..